as I said earlier, im on vacation, at the gulf of Mexico ocean. I am having many thoughts that i am having to deal with, but I am definitely trying to sit back and reach boca. i HATE beaches because i don't like getting NAKED, which is the general dress code, I am not frigid, I am just extremely conscious. plus, seeing all those people my age around makes me feel like a burn victem, why r they so typical?????, WHY CANT I BE LIKE A MOVIE CHARACTER?, ??

I saw this other guy next to me, all alone and around my age, and I thought to myself, I get u, and i like you there next to me. bc he was also wearing a swim shirt, with no friends and no family around him, AND I DONT NEED ANY CONTEXT, I dont care why that was or if he was going home to a huge happy family after, in that moment he was exactly like me, and I didnt feel like an alien which I can very very very much appreciate.

and then this other ripped guy came by all tall and shit, with his dog and I HATE DOGS, and he tripped in the sand and I smiled with joy bc he TRIPPED AND I WILL FOREVER REMEMBER. sucker

and also, these are the pictures I have taken there, with the phone feature of somehow seeing the stars better than I can, pretty fucking cool? and also the nice and fancy reserve I am at, I feel like a rich person, I feel guiltly just walking around. I need to go back t o my cave in the woods where I live best in my best form maybe, at least I feel better movingg anyways.

you might be wondering why i came to this website to talk about anything, well that is because there is no "you" and I am basically ranting into the void, but like many humans, i like to talk about myself, so what??