well hello again, I have been well, of course. Ive been at school and other things, I am learning to drive like a pro, I have a permit already I'm just getting used to the road.

when I was 13 I wrote a poem , that goes like this

The death of my spirit will be the death of my body

Finalization of my finite breaking soul

My maimed heart will swell with pain, as my body slaves to keep me walking, keep on talking...

Talking to submit to those who further their own narrative

While I lie in wait for my eager soul to relent to connect to my savior

Not my God, who failed a take over...

But my being who relented to a souls takeover.

and a few days ago I wrote another poem that goes like this

Strings, clear strings.

Cut off your circulation, threaten your skin

Wrap around your neck, drag you back to hell

They circle your wrists, purple your fingertips.

Clear strings...

So tight, they split flesh, a stream of blood that seeps down your biceps

Thin, transparent strings...

Invisible to your eyes, burn your soul

Thin cuts drag down your arms, never past the sleeve

What a tease to reveal your strings...

SO pretty much I am saying, I do have the minds eye for speech and creation, I took AP Lit last year as a freshman and got a 4, so I will choose this one time to say that I can make art, that I so desperately want to. and can you see? I think personally that my poems have gotten better, and you haven't even seen my magnum opus, called "My Creator" so, feel free to judge, but my mind can take this one piece of achievement.

and also, when I am REALLY REALLY into something, I try SO SO hard to further in that skill, and for art I think I can make it, at least to a level where I can be OKEY with what I make. so basically, I am wanting to be able to transfer my minds pictures to paper or computer screen, and it is kinda okey okey

I've been playing a LOT of yume 2kki in the past 3 weeks sinceschool started, and I have found my mentor.

OG MY GOOOD

the art...

the imagination...

the story...

the soul...

I love I love it I love it I love it I love it so sos osososoosos juch I have found something just GREAT just so inspiring. this is the art I have been looking for my whole life, it is what I want to replicate so much I will learn, like a proud and dedicated student just u bet I will so bad and much thxxx

also, my poems are claimed and copyrighted, not by the government, but by ME, take them, I will take u, to hell. thx.

I am having fun with art STILL , which is great. so what else? I have made significant progress in my goal to make a friend, with a girl who is now labeled "MAY" here, now, May is just so extraverted and I find that very inspiring, I wish I could just strike up a conversation like she can with ppl, but I have to many senerios in my mind, and I am a afried to risk social ostracization. but she is not and I admire that. so I hope we can be good friends someday. that would be nice.

that is it for tonight, I think, I will post some art tomorrow. I will. okey bye.